Making art should not be scary

I've been hiding away for about a month, because I'm silly. I've somehow managed to convince myself that drawing is scary and time consuming and is not fun at all. It's ridiculous because I know that isn't true, and even if I did just 30 minutes of drawing a day I would have done at least two or three pictures in the last 4 weeks, but instead I've sat here frozen, and fretted and thought about the people I've left waiting and it just stresses me out.

I know I just need to get a grip, calm down and do some drawing. But it's one of those annoying things where you worry so much about it not being perfect, that it's easier and less scary to not do anything at all - that way you can't fail.

That is the most awful and unproductive way to think about it, and I hate that it is how I act. I really want to break through this way of thinking and get back to drawing consistently and actually enjoying it too.

I want to apologise I haven't submitted anything in so long, and also say sorry to Bandarai for making her wait for such an unacceptably long time for my half of our art trade. I have not forgotten about it and will finish it, I hope I have not annoyed you too much with my rubbishness :c